Stupid Vanity

It has struck me recently that I am only displaying photo's of myself when I was younger! And I'm thinking, in horror and amusement (and faint disgust) -  How vain is that!

Guess it's hitting me that looks and health are on the slippery slope. I look at the good looking, if not "hot" girl I was in my 20's  (I'm modest too!) and sigh a deep sigh.  It shouldn't matter. Looks. But packaging always helps and looking good, makes you feel good about yourself - (all that psychological stuff, etc etc ...)  

When I was younger, I wasn't "vain" - that is to say, didn't make a huge effort to look good, I just did. I wasn't the type to preen and fuss. I'm feminine but tomboyish. Now I preen and fuss more to look only half as good as I did at half my age.

The younger attractive women I see around me, I don't have a problem with - no resentment. My thinking is that I was once like that, we all have our turn - it's the nature and order of things. But sometimes it's just hard to accept that life moves on so fast.

I don't like seeing this aging woman in the mirror. Lines on my face - laughter lines I can handle its the others - the ones that are screaming - Getting Old Love" that I don't like. Starting to find grey hairs for the first time. Health issues are starting to be that - issues - not things that I can push to the side.
Pretty sure I'm pre-menopausal. There are half a dozen other things I could mention.

Will stop moaning now. I know it's all stupid vanity. Guess I'm in vulnerable mode. Usually very positive person. 

Will slink away now (apply numerous face creams and take Oil of Evening Primrose capsules) and remember that I have character and personality enough to face the world!

Mmmm, which side looks better ...........

liguidgold liguidgold
41-45, F
15 Responses Apr 16, 2011

As I look into the mirror, I know that I have earned every wrinkle. My life hasn't been a lot of fun, and I am ready for God to let me come home.

I just started with the evening primrose oil ;) I always admired the more older distinguished look..But' as I get there ... I'm with you, yet life is truly a blessing still .At times I know when I was younger, I did not know the things I do now ;) Wisdom with the yrs gracefully ... hehe!

Older and wiser, Candy. In some ways for me, not in others! LOL
I do believe it is best to age gracefully though and accept. Like I said in post, we all have our turn and then it's a case of aging gracefully and making the most of what we have got without going OTT. :). Your still young and lovely. More than a few years before you have to worry about such things! x

Mmmmmmm ...... Double edged compliment, said with best intentions but I'm a woman so ill twist it to my advantage! No. RL looks when young where great! I got a lot of attention (and I was a jeans and t-shirt girl). Think I was just lucky! Though I felt uncomfortable with it at times! Those were the days,eh!<br />
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Thank you for your compliment about recent times photo.:)<br />
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I don't know what you mean about button fronted dresses! *innocently twirls strand of hair*

How sweet! Have you stopped screaming yet??

Only cos i keep passing out! Reaches for smelling salts again!

Well if it hurts when you bang your head against the wall the best thing to do is stop banging! Maybe you should sit down next time - I wouldn't want you to swoon and suffer some injury!

Well I have to say in all honesty that you look more attractive in your 5 years ago pictures than you do in the older ones. <br />
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And those 80s fashions - I shall refrain from comment - but certainly not Fashions finest hours although button fronted dresses do have certain advantages!

As a lady, I will refrain from commenting on your photos! I ran screaming from the room actually! ;p

Thank you for all lovely compliments! <br />
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And in most cases, it is the reverse for men - they DO improve with age! <br />
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*leaves room for private strop and huff!*<br />
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All Ok now! 'smiles brightly.<br />
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And many thanks for invitation to join your circle. I happily accept! :)

I've stopped walking around but am now "strutting" *big grin*<br />
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Actually, no. As I am a Lady, I am gliding through doors "sideways" *even bigger grin*<br />
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And your still wonderful ........ not everyday a girl gets to be a "muse". It appeals to my artistic temperament!

Just left a message on your whiteboard saying you have a "poet's soul" and you have! xx

My Gallant Knight again! I love you!!!!! :)<br />
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Human platypus! LMAO xxx<br />
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I certainly know that with an attractive character and personality a person becomes more attractive and also that this works in reverse.<br />
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Your right that a lot of teenagers have a "generic" look to them. I have always appreciated and been drawn to individuality and uniqueness - and that includes when I was much younger. I didn't exactly "go with the flow!"<br />
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And those are lovely words you have written - I know you have sent them with genuine sincerity and I think you are wonderful for that. *blows kiss*

lol. i don't know what you look like but i'm sure you're very attractive :) what gets me are the health issues more than anything: changes in eyesight, the metabolism that has all but shut off, the aches and pains that i'm on a first name basis with now. i could go on and on but you get the picture lol

Understand too well! :)

Hey there Jerrica! Bummer isn't it!<br />
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Think Dorian Gray had right idea - maybe I should try putting my portrait in attic. No wait - just chuck all photo albums up there. That might do the trick! LOL<br />
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And bloody health issues .... :( <br />
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Just popping across to check your story out! :)

i see nothing wrong with this story being posted in this group and i can definitely relate to what you say about the health issues that accompany getting older. that thought inspired me to write a story yesterday about getting older, how i can't see the benefits of it.

We're not talking 'basin bowl' haircut here,are we?!! LOL <br />
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Had one of those when I was twelve. *winces and shudders at memory*<br />
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Crop. Recent. Implies much longer locks?<br />
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I have long hair and even with bed hair, will try and keep tresses "as long" as can get away with it! :D

Blackadder fan per chance! I'll just call you Baldrick then eh! LOL

It was a while before I did post pictures for the same concerns - recognition. But the odds are so great against it that I thought what the hell ,,,,, and as you mentioned, I make use of the privacy settings ....<br />
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'you silver Tongue charmer' you!! I like that trait in a man!<br />
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Thank you for the compliment - appreciated :)

At least you have the courage to post your pics at all! I guess I'm too concerned someone will recognize me, which is silly, I know. I don't know anyone who's mentioned to me that they've discovered EP, and privacy settings can certainly be adjusted so that only friends can see my pics. <br />
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FWIW, your portraits are lovely indeed. You're bound to still be quite a looker, I'm sure. NOT that that matters... :-)

There are others on this particular forum suffering from real depression so just want to say that I apologise for putting this particular story here.<br />
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Wrong category.