A Taste Of Light...Probably the worst part about depression is the brief lulls of lucidity and "happiness" that sometimes interrupt the melancholy and sadness. Like wandering around in a dark room and getting a brief glimpse of light. You wonder where it came from and enjoy it, but at the same time it's so blinding that you don't know what to do with it. Then...it's gone. Just like that as quickly as it came.
Moments like that tease you, giving you a small taste of what a normal, happy person feels like. In many ways it would be better if these moments never came, because it only makes you realize what you're missing and then the subsequent depression comes back even harder.
Tuva 31-35, M 12 Responses 2 Jun 19, 2011