Understanding Is Too Much To Ask?
I find it really hard to deal with clinical depression along with trying to help others to understand what it is really like. My husband who says he does, cannot fathom the amount of energy it takes for me to get out of bed some mornings, to try and understand why you are crying when there is no reason at all to be upset, to have feelings of wanting to disappear thinking that it would be better for all that are involved, to feel like you are going to "crawl out of your skin" when the PAIN is so bad you don't know how to deal with it, to deal with the guilt attached to the crazy behavior that you feel as if you have no control over sometimes. It would be nice for once to be with someone that understood, that knew that you are a great person despite your illness and to know that there are times they may need to step up to the plate and take a few hits yet see that this too shall pass. It is SOOOO painful to love and live with someone that doesn't understand and continues to say things in a way that make you feel like you REALLY ARE crazy. It hurts.....It just hurts!