Everyday It's Something

It's almost like I'm not allowed to be happy. As soon as I start to smile or shake off some of the depression someone swoops in and makes me feel even more worthless than before. I constantly get yelled at for doing things wrong and if I finally do something right no one even acknowledges it. It's like it never even happened. I used to like making friends and meeting new people, but they all eventually start putting me down and making me feel like there's no point in even getting out of bed in the morning. People say they care and want to help, but when I start to tell people just the little things they call me an idiot and stomp off mad at me. Needless to say, I keep my distance from everyone now. I don't feel like I can trust anyone even a little bit because they'll just screw me over at some point. Do other people feel this way or am I truly alone?
L96Arctic L96Arctic
22-25, M
2 Responses Jan 9, 2012

You let it happen that they are mean to you.

I agree with you. i feel the same way, its like no matter what i do somehting always stops me from being as happy as i want to be with my life. sometimes i just want to give up hope but i have 2 very importent people in my life that make me happy enough to go on. but at the same time they both moved half way across the country from me and i dont have they're suport anymore.

exactly, every time you have something that makes you happy it just leaves forever.