Fighting

I'm also fighting depression. I know I've had it since I was at least 13. That was the first time I thought about suicide anyway. I've hit rock bottom so many times. I've only recently been getting help for it and that's a struggle in it's self. finding out what pill works and what therapist to go to. But to be honest I'd do anything if it ment not ever having to go back to what I was before. I honestly don't know how it is that I'm still alive. With as bad as I got as many times as I did....it's a miracle that I'm still here.
pepsi21addict pepsi21addict
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 5, 2007

Have you ever just walked outside, and saw the sunshine, or look up into the sky, just looking at it, focusing your mind solely on the sky? Sometimes we need to stop thinking about all of our woes and just, I don't know, start looking at something minute, yet profoundly beautiful in the world. A smile on someone's face, kids dancing and playing without a care in the world. Or just submerge yourself into a book. I face depression as well, have most of my life. But even though I face it every day, I try and focus on something, one thing, that can make my whole world stop focusing on all of my problems and troubles, and on just this one thing this one aspect of the universe. After that, I keep it in my head, and return to it every time I feel down so that no matter what, i don't feel so bad anymore. Still is a son of a b**** to deal with though.