Beautiful Night.

I havent though about killing myself in long time,and I havent hurt myself in a even longer time but yesterday i felt more depress than usual even on my worse days dnt feel this low...i sat by window in dark just blank out I watch cars and people pass by for hours I felt so alone it was like the whole world is moving but me as stupid as it sounds I felt like I was waiting for someone who never came..I want to die this feelin just makes me tired of this life..there are no answers left in the end I'm just broken person if love cnt heal these scars wat can...
Confusedlo20 Confusedlo20
26-30, M
2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

thats the same as me i havent wanted to kill myself since about january time and havent hurt myself since then either ....although am still sad and depressed not so bad

And this was years ago..its gotten much worse since I just want someone there you know

Depression is an illness just like Cancer or Bronchitis. Talk to your doctor about it and get help. There's a lot of it out there :)

Call it what you will, but there is this part of you – an innate wisdom, if you will – that has tried and tried and tried to get you to stop and fix a part of you that broke a long time ago but you've told yourself that you either don't have enough money, don't have enough time, don't have enough courage, don't have enough faith, don't have enough conviction, don't have enough belief in yourself, don't have enough love for yourself or any of the thousands of other reasons you've been rattling off to yourself every single day as justification for not stopping and trying to fix that part of you that broke down.<br />
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This innate wisdom inside of you – your other “YOU” – is tired of looking at its reflection in the mirror and seeing a shell, an empty husk.<br />
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“YOU” doesn't want this to be your life anymore but you haven't been listening to him so now, you've left “YOU” with no other recourse but to shut you down – completely. So, in this way, what you're feeling now is the effect of this tool “YOU” is using to get you to STOP! and do anything and everything in your power to fix “YOU”.<br />
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“YOU” is on strike :)<br />
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The point is, listen to “YOU”. “YOU” has shut you down – and will keep you shut down – until you give “YOU” the life it so desperately wants. It's tired of hearing your rationalizations, your excuses - “YOU” wants no more of it!<br />
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The only way you'll make peace with “YOU” is by doing exactly what he wants :)<br />
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The wonderful thing is that, in the process of finally obeying “YOU”, you'll slowly feel MORE energy, MORE passion, MORE intelligence, MORE wisdom, MORE peace and MORE happiness, until one day, “YOU” has decided to turn you back on and has freed you from Depression.<br />
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Listen to “YOU”. Start now! :)

Lol innate wisdom huh,thankyou for the advice and I hope so

Try it out. What have you got to lose? :D