I Battle Depression
I'm sorry I keep posting these things on here, I need to get these feelings out.
I hope none of this is offensive.
I hate when I feel happy one minute and as the day goes on it slips down hill and I have to work to build myself up. But it's really hard when the one person I love so deeply, who I would do anything to be with, is with another and so far away.
That triggers my sadness. People may say I should stay away from him --- but it isn't HIM that upsets me. It's when I see photos of him and HER together that tears me up, leaving me feeling like my soul has been stabbed with an iron rod that also makes my blood turn to ice and I can hardly breathe.
I can't get to him, I can't touch him, I'm not good enough, etc, etc.
I nearly lost my sanity to them many months ago.
I have stress anyway concerning my family and bullies........but this man I love --- I want him so badly, it's almost like my soul is crying out to him and I worry he will never love me when we meet. I may be too late.
I love him so, so, so deeply. He makes me happy and the love I feel for him when SHE isn't around makes me want to cry. He is so beautiful and amazing....I love him.
It's not him I'm jealous of with his dreams of trying to be an actor; it's HER.
It makes me sad and so much reminds me of them.
Ugh. I hate depression. Love may be a wonderful thing, but it is also a painful experience.
I advise you to stay far away from it if you want to protect your sanity and unneeded drama-emotions.
I hope none of this is offensive.
I hate when I feel happy one minute and as the day goes on it slips down hill and I have to work to build myself up. But it's really hard when the one person I love so deeply, who I would do anything to be with, is with another and so far away.
That triggers my sadness. People may say I should stay away from him --- but it isn't HIM that upsets me. It's when I see photos of him and HER together that tears me up, leaving me feeling like my soul has been stabbed with an iron rod that also makes my blood turn to ice and I can hardly breathe.
I can't get to him, I can't touch him, I'm not good enough, etc, etc.
I nearly lost my sanity to them many months ago.
I have stress anyway concerning my family and bullies........but this man I love --- I want him so badly, it's almost like my soul is crying out to him and I worry he will never love me when we meet. I may be too late.
I love him so, so, so deeply. He makes me happy and the love I feel for him when SHE isn't around makes me want to cry. He is so beautiful and amazing....I love him.
It's not him I'm jealous of with his dreams of trying to be an actor; it's HER.
It makes me sad and so much reminds me of them.
Ugh. I hate depression. Love may be a wonderful thing, but it is also a painful experience.
I advise you to stay far away from it if you want to protect your sanity and unneeded drama-emotions.
By:
ChellyRocker
Age:
18-21
,
Female
