It Gets Old

Sometimes I just get overwhelmed with this sense of unease. Its like a restlessness. I just lay down and fall asleep at odd hours, like during the day time and wake up at almost midnight and just stay up until I fall asleep from exhaustion. My thoughts seem cloudy. It all seems to come very slowly. When I do eat its not out of a genuine appetite its just due to something like boredom. I spend extended periods of time away from work and some would say, "I'd milk the hell out of that and do what I want to." Nah, I only wish it worked like that. I really can't bring myself to do anything I enjoy. I guess that's anhedonia.

This is depression for me. I go through periods of it over and over again. I'm not really bringing any real insight into it with this post. In fact this post is actually incredibly hard to write just due to how cloudy my mind feels right now. It even occurred to me a few sentences in why even bother? Why try to remember your username for this weird looking, emo DeviantART/Livejournal love child website? K.. don't take that personally. Its... *shrug* an attempt at a joke I suppose.

Thanks for listening.