Depression Go Away Already, Dude.
Depression, hmm some say no one can really get depressed or it's just a phase. Really? Well this so called "phase" has been with me my whole life.. I get so tired from feeling this way, every ******* day, every waking hour, and even my dreams are depressing.. How pathetic, I've been on antidepressants before, but they didn't help, so I stopped taking them. I've talked to psychiatrists and been in the psych ward. But, I still feel the way I do. I never get excited about anything, never amused, it just seems like I have nothing to look forward to.. And yes, yes I know I'm young still, but I do not want to keep on going if I'm gonna feel like this all the time, you know? I mean, it doesn't help that I literally have no one anymore. Everyone turned on me and ignore me, guess it's easier for them. I got kicked out of my house, my mom and step dad(hate him anyway) did not want me there and my dad didnt want me at his place either, my best friend didn't want me there so I asked my friend Blair who had passed away from letting all her pain get to her, so she sadly ended her life on me..that just killed me, that was so not expected, I still to this day can't let go of her, she was my love. I loved and still do love her so much it hurts..so that just made my ****** life dreadful, because man did I love that girl, she has my heart. Sorry for ranting on about her, off topic but whatever. So, I asked Blair's dad and girlfriend of I could stay with them till I find somewhere. Which they said yes cause I use to live at their house when Blair was still here, I grew up at that house. But, yeah. I just really feel like giving up, I mean what do I do? Where do I go? Who do I talk to? I have no one. Absolutely, no one. I just wish I had someone to talk to, ya know? Anyone.. I wish someone just understood me and what I'm feeling. Anyway, that's my story..thanks for reading.