Get Off The Couch?

everything feels impossible... hopeless

why am i here?

why do i have to put up with all this crap?

I'm tired


kill myself?


if only i had the energy to do more than think about what i want 

maybe its good i don't feel like doing anything

the only thing i feel like doing is jumping off a bridge

i'm engaged

but i still feel lonely

its not fair to him

he has to work a full time job and put up with me

no wonder i make him sad

he asks me why i lay in bed all day

i don't have an answer

it makes him upset

i don't know what to do

i should have a job

but i can't even get up to brush my teeth

what do i do?

i'm so tired

i can't stop sleeping

its so hopeless
katniss93 katniss93
18-21, F
3 Responses Apr 18, 2012

This sounds familiar. Your story is mine. I get up at 6am to get my 16 year old son ready for school. I make him breakfast and drop him off. By 7:30am I am back in bed, and I sleep till 12:30. Pick him up at 2:30, feeling soooo guilty about wasting another day. I make him dinner. We eat and it starts all over the next day. I feel like such a loser. I'm just so depressed and unhappy, lonely and full of despair.

honestly i know exaclty how you feel, try to hang on things will get better :) are you on medication? if so it may not be the right kind for you, i have recently had my medacation changed and alreadly feel alot better. if not then i suggeset you go to your doctor and get some help. try your best to go outside to get a little fresh air, i know it is difficult but get out of bed because it really does make you feel alot worse, go out and get your self a new outfit or your favorite treat. start making lists of things you should do that day to get yourself motivated :) these are some of the thing i do to help my self cope, if you need somone to talk to you can message me :) keep as positive as posible i promise you things will improve

I can relate to how you feel. Sometimes getting out of the bed is the hardest thing I do all day. <br />
Open all the windows in your bedroom. The light and fresh air will help a little. :-) <br />
Sometimes it's got to be about the little things.