*tear*

Ahhhh...depression...facepalm...
Ok wen i was bout..hmmm....11 i think... i was messed up...my dad got shot in the head...i couldn't see my half sister or step bro...& i found out i had HIGH blood preasure....not too good wen u have a heart mur mur.. :'( well the doc. gave me some meds.... :'( & i just changed...i felt like no one cared anymore..i thought i was alone all the time... :'( So all i did was stay in my room..alone...in the dark...They thought the meds. made me tired..NOPE..i really never slept...i would stay up....listening to the dark lonely ness....Im off of the meds. now....but nothing seems the same anymore..I used to dance ALOT!! & Be silly..more fun..& imaginitve...but that just went away...It's like half of me left....or died...Sometimes i cry in the middle of the night...asking myself why did this happen...I still don't git to see half of my family...It hurts inside...im learning to come out of my shell...look around..& breath...I hate myself for dying in scilence...but i couldn't do anything..it was like a long pause..with just Me Myself & I....I was afraid of losing myself in time..i thought i was stuck...The last time i seen my Older bro & little sis.. was a few weeks before Christmas...& wen i had to leave i cryed the night away...i miss them much...it hurts to see them grow up...I miss everything...i can only wish that my wonds will heal..& we can be a family again...
WolfAngel29 WolfAngel29
13-15, F
May 5, 2012