Living In Fear

I have a fear.A bad fear.Of myself.I have a bad habit of cutting myself no matter where i am.It all started when i started having kids throw food at me and hitting me and jumping on me because they assume i am fat so i can take that.So i developed a habit that every time that happened i would cut myself.I would cut the letters out on my stomach and cry myself to sleep because of the pain.I could not even watch my favorite tv shows because of the weight problem.I wanted to runaway from myself.Then i started starving myself and i did not care how faint i felt i just continued.I still cut myself and i do it cause people just don't understand when you hurt yourself you are your worst enemy.I cant be alone or i will do something dangerous to myself including myself.I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!
unbrokensoul unbrokensoul
13-15, F
May 6, 2012