I Have No Idea Why Today Is Such A Bad Day

however it is and im not dealing it very well. On top of depression I have borderline personality disorder which is 1000 times worse then being bi polar. instead of being happy for 3 months straight, im happy once in awhile and only for a short period of time. There are a lot of other issues that come with borderline disorder. Anyway There are a few things that triggered all of this anger. Right now im worried about my lizard and i cant be there to make sure hes okay and my ex last night bitched about his friend getting married and how pissed off he was that he wasnt invited and then today was all buddy buddy with his friend WITHOUT telling his friend how he felt. I hate people like that.

Then last night I had a second dream where I was back in an In patient program and my ex was staying there as well. My current boyfriend came to visit and thought I had been cheating on him with my ex, cause my ex was there. Because of that I woke up feeling really guilty and paranoid. Now my ex an I are arguing over the STUPIDEST thing ever sadly though the stupidest thing ever is driving me mad. 

I dont know how to make this anger stop. On top of all this my grandpa is driving me up the wall which is not helping the anger. Its one trigger after another today. Oh and my boyfriends piece of **** brother didn't go to work again today.  I have more bad days then good days, people get mad at me for being mad for logical reasons. Right now my emotions are very exaggerated and I wish i knew how to stop them but i dont.

Oh and I now have another trigger happening. 
YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
May 9, 2012