I Pray Every Night......to Not Awake In The Morning

Um hello? Well I am a 43 year old male and suffer from depression. I am disabled and need to use a cane. I have no female friends. I had a girl I met online from the states. She came here twice. Things were great! Then she had to go back home and she just faded away. I would ask her all the time what I had done to make her pull away. Of course the response was "Oh it is not you blah blah" I am a nice guy or so I thought. I only have 2 or 3 friends I can hang out with, but most of the time I am just here alone, in my stupid apartment. I can feel myself rotting. As stated earlier, I am disabled. Nobody seems to know (or care) what it is. It effects my balance, I am unable to sit and lift my foot up from the ankle. I have little control over moving my toes and if I should injure a toe I loose the ability to move my toes at all for 15-20 mins.
MrOttawa MrOttawa
46-50, M
2 Responses May 10, 2012

Man, this is truly saddening... Go out on your scooter dude. F*** what other people think. I don't know where you live, but in the states here no one but ignorant 10-15 year old teenagers laugh at disabled people. Make the best outa your life dude. I'm 18 years old, & sit around in my apartment probably as much as you do. I know it's easy to say but hard to do...look at me... Gotta try though man. We both do.

I have tv (always the same shows)<br />
I have radio<br />
I have my comp<br />
Sometimes I go out on my scooter but people laugh at it, so here I am