My Letter To Admissions At Rmit University

My name is .... and I am 21 years old. At the age of 19, I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. This is how it affected my studying for many years.

While I was in year 12, I was fine until about a month before exams. I started obsessing with the school work, crying about my future, not wanting to go to school and feeling very numb during classes. As I was doing the exams I felt stupid, like I wasn’t good enough. There was this feeling of dread inside me, and a voice telling me there was no way I was passing and getting my VCE. I didn’t know at the time that these were all signs of depression and my pride refused to let me tell anyone how I felt so no one could warn me.

I got quite a low ENTER score (in the 60’s) as I broke down before most of my exams and my concentration was non-existent during. Luckily I had already received a spot at La Trobe University in Bendigo studying Psychological Science by early entry. The feelings seemed to pass.
I enjoyed the social side of university a lot, but the education side started weighing down on me. This eventually affected all aspects of my life. I remember at one point I refused to leave my room and consequently my house for about two weeks. Most of this time was spent crying in bed. This caused my motivation to start going to class went down. I still tried to submit all my assignments but it became too much for me and I finally told my mother about how I was feeling as it was starting to get to the suicidal thoughts stage.

My mother and I went and saw a councillor at La Trobe and she advised me that I defer immediately to try and recover. I went and saw a doctor and he diagnosed me. I was put on anti-depressants and advised to go to a psychologist. As I had moved back in with my parents the one psychologist in the small rural town was constantly booked out, so much so that I eventually gave up on seeing her.

I worked for the rest of the year but decided I wanted to study again. I was feeling ok on the anti-depressants and felt I could handle it. I saw a careers councillor as I didn’t want to go back to the Psychology course as I felt as though the science classes brought the worst out in me.
The councillor suggested I try the Advanced Diploma of Business (Public Relations) at RMIT. I did inform her that I was not that enthusiastic about the business side, but the public relations did appeal to me. She still insisted I apply.

I went well the first year. I did struggle with classes and was not very happy with the choice I had made with the course I really wanted to do well after the disaster of the year before. When I failed one class in the last semester for what to me seemed like no reason, I spent two months wallowing in my room. I think this was the beginning of the end.

The second year (the start of this one) was very difficult for me. I didn’t want to leave my room so I missed a lot of classes. I also had quite a few family problems. I knew at the rate I was going that I was going to fail. I immediately went back to see a new doctor who has been amazing.

I'm finally going to see a psychologist which is well overdue. I’m thinking positive. I am, at the moment withdrawing from the Advanced Diploma class with no academic penalty. I feel as though I was forced into that course as the business side was definitely disagreeing with me.

I have extensively studied the course I am applying for and have decided on my own that it will be perfect for me. I always wanted to be a journalist but that seemed to be pushed away from me. I enjoyed the public relations/marketing side of my last course.

I am now determined to get back on track. I’m taking the appropriate steps to be a better student and a happier, brighter human being. I can promise that if you decide to accept me into the course I am applying for you will not regret it. I will be the hardest worker, and get the most out of it.

While I know it will be a struggle, I am unwavering. I will beat what has pushed me down time and time again. I will beat what has disabled be from achieving my goals. I will beat depression. 
Kvee91 Kvee91
2 Responses May 11, 2012

I can completly relate to you. I had to drop a semester because of anxiety and depression. Because of it I owe that college money, and cannot start classes there until the balance is paid. So, instead of just waiting to save up the money to get back in that school. I started going to another college and enrolled in a different major. <br />
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Even though I really wanted to finish at my previous college and the major I was enrolled in, I just couldn't. However I like my new college and the major I'm in which is complementary and alternative health. Before I was taking human services. Now, I just see it as maybe fate, to do something that I really love. <br />
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I am determined to not let my anxiety and depression get in my way. <br />
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I just wanted to write you, and tell you that you are not alone, and your story is very inspirational. I wish you the best, and keep being strong.

No you dont have to do anything. You have always put your targets above your limit. Yes, technically you have a brain to achieve those targets, but you do not have the courage to do. So, you have to set your limits below your capacity, then there will be know anxiety and no depression. As you can go back and read what you have written you will notice that whenever the demand is more, you had lost.