Confused And DepressedHi, this past year I've been so sad, and I have only just realised that it could actually be depression, which kills me even more. I'm fifteen years old, and every day when I come back in my school, I just lie in my bed and listen to music, watching the sunset. Everyday, for around five hours, then sleep doing nothing. And I don't want to do anything else. I feel like a crappy excuse of a person. I make arguements out of everything, I feel like my family doesn't actually like me, bar my dad. I'm 'happy' when at school, but whenever I get a moment of silence I'm so sad again.
But recently, some days, it's like I'm on a high, and really happy at life, then other days I feel so depressed and de-energized. I haven't got some health problem. The other day, I had a really bad down day, and it came to me that I can end it all and I was contemplating suicide. I want help, but I don't want to sit down and talk about it to someone, it doesn't seem serious enough, and I feel pathetic for even writing this.
Today, I just feel confused and neither happy or sad.