I Fight It Everyday

I have always thought I was not good enough for anyone. Never really was good at anything. Then I joined work. Was happy that I could contribute somewhere. I was slowly making friends. Then love happened. Fell in love. And lost it. All at the beginning of this year. This year has been nothing but miserable. I quit work to do my studies. Instead of studying, I wasted my time being all day in conversation with him (i never knew what is meant by head over heels in love, until now). Then he just left and went. I wasnt the one for him. I just messed up a whole year in my pursuit of love. Now, I have no work, no love, my studies are hardly worth talking about, my friends have slowly started to move away from me, n so is my family. Aye, am the reason for it. Spend too little time with them when he was around. When he left, just went screaming n shoutin at everyone. Now, i have no one left in my life. I am all alone. It feels so lonely, I feel so lost. It so hard to stay alive every day. It so hard to not cry everyday.

unchainedmelody unchainedmelody
26-30, F
10 Responses Dec 7, 2006

Hello I hope today finds you both in good health and spirit. I like to tell you that the choices we make in life reflect the way we live our lives. this dosen't mean we can't make mistakes, but if we make better choices our lives would be so much better.Focus on your studies and what you want, what you think is the best thing for you and don't let anyone stop you. we are entering a new year started of on the wright foot,you'll make it and don't let anyone tell you diffrent.and your family they'll come around.If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you GOD BLESS YOU your friend jennyc.

"THIS TO WILL PASS".<br />
I AM 50 YRS. OLD AND MY LIFE HAS CHANGED SO MANY TIMES. I THINK IT HAS TO HAPPEN TO GET YOU TO ANOTHER PLACE. AND SOME CHOSE THE WRONG ROAD AND HAD TO DO A U TURN TO GET TO THE NEXT POINT. I DO NOT DO U TURNS I GO THE OTHER WAY, WHICH YOU CAN SLADE SIDE WAYS FOR A LONG TIME AFTER YOU HIT BOTTOM. I LAY IN IT FOR A WEEK OR TWO AND THEN I MAKE A PLAN. ALL BUT I HAVE DONE THAT TWO OR THREE TIMES AND GOT PUT BACK DOWN. YOU KNOW WHAT I DO THEN? START UP AGAIN AND TRY TO REMEMBER WHAT NOT TO DO AGAIN. AN AGAIN AN AGAIN................................................................... I LOVE YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU SOUND JUST LIKE ME. BUT I HAVE A GOOD MAN THAT I AM HAVING A HARD TIME WITH. BECAUSE I AM DEPRESSED . BUT I AM WORKING ON THAT! HANG IN THERE THINGS ARE GOING TO CHANGE!

same pinch.....lolz...even i also spent a lot of time for her n loved her unconditionaly....she tried to get away frm me in many ways by makng constant fights n demands where i always agreed with her ... as i loved her by accepting everythng in her not jus the good part but finaly one beautifull morning she gav me a call n said she is with sumone else n thts it i was shatterd droped my course n thn started my fate of being a human, my friends also cheated me n took a lot of money ....i was made a dumb head everywhere n thn i jus startd to hide frm everyone n thts simply becos am scared ... but i thnk god tht all this worst situation there was sumbdy for whom i neva gave much time n now i do give n thts none other thn my family esp my dad....

ohhh God!<br />
the same sorta thing happened to me a while back....someone I thought i fell in love turned out to be a complete cheat and a complete liar and a fraud and what not....all the time and emotional energy wasted was too much to bare for me....really....and for that i thank HIM (sarcasm intended)<br />
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I felt nothing...like a fallen leaf in autumn season...i felt cut off from life....felt so worthless.....ohhh God....why did it happen to me I thought (because i've never hurt anyone everrrrr in life...!!!)<br />
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So i can understand ur pain ....its hard getting life back on the track and just thinking about it makes me feel like i am short of breath (such sad feelings!)<br />
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Convince yourself that he didnt deserve you....full stop

I feel 4 you. I'm getting over one 6 year relationship and then a couple of short 1,5-week ones after that first one. I cry a lot, feel depressed, can't finish a simple task - like finish a book or do the dishes - people say getting over a serious feeling can take up to 2 years, so let yourself hurt, being depressed cause these are the stages of healing. Good advice to turn to your family 4 help. if it's not the best option (like in my case) - talk to a specialist, a psychologist, take 1 day at a time, I know how overwhelming thinking even a week ahead can be. just accept it, feeling what you feel is normal - you'll get over it eventually. the only way out is through.

As many have said, talk to your family about it. If there a decent enough sort, they'll see you through it. And any man who has the gall to brush you off (Im taking "up and left" literally here), there not worth keeping. Go for the nice guys, not the cool guys.

its no offence u fall in love, but ur selection was wrng. n its natural we alwasy hurt those who love us n love those who neva care for us, its always better to love the one who love us rather thn to love the one who we love becos they might leave us one day for the one whom they love. its neva late.... cheer up n lets hav a new start. k . best of luck.

its no offence u fall in love, but ur selection was wrng. n its natural we alwasy hurt those who love us n love those who neva care for us, its always better to love the one who love us rather thn to love the one who we love becos they might leave us one day for the one whom they love. its neva late.... cheer up n lets hav a new start. k . best of luck.

It would be great if you talked to your family and friends , explained to them what you need and they were there to support you. But what if they don't? Sometimes the only people we can count on is ourselves. That scares the hell out of me. That's why I'm on this computer tonight. Who takes care of the lonely? Well, I'm here for ya. Be strong, love yourself.

You should talk about your problem/s to people who care, because they WILL be there for you no matter what.(:<br />
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This will encourage you to open up, heal those wounds and get over it, and also, it would give them a chance to understand what happened to you.<br />
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Take care of yourself ya :)