My History: Depression


When I was child, I was very, but very happy, for real.. I had and I still have a wonderful family who always gave for me of the good and the best ...

My depression started when I was about 16 years old, since then I am still depressed ...

I suffer a lot, it's not easy ...

It's a pain that consumes you inside and you just don't know what to do ...

I've always been a shy and lonely girl ...

Often, people called me to stay with them and I never went with them because something inside prevents me

So, I was looked like somebody strange by everybody, and I was automatically isolated by the people.

One of the reasons for my depression is my inferiority complex, yeah, I simply don't like myself! I don't like my appearance, I'm not happy with my life ...

I've stopped doing so many things by find myself a useless person ...

I already thought about suicide .... more than once. But when I think about suicide, I stay with a horrible sensation, of sadness, weakness, failure and  cowardice!

simply because I can't socialize as normal person in the world .. 

But something has changed little by little..

one day I woke up and when I opened the window, I thought: what a beautiful day ...

After a long time, I had a reason to stay happy with my life

You know..The world is out there and if we are here, we need to LIVE..Even if something blocks you inside and leaves you sad, this is no reason for don't live, and Yes change ...

This has to start from the inside of you ...cause you know ...won't happen a miracle!

Something will only change if you start looking at the things in a positive way, even if you are not happy ...

changes arise from simpler things ...

what you can't do is still being sad without initiative ...

Each person who wants to improve, go to search ways to change ..We're all the same inside, what changes is only the appearance ...

And I've thought many times, and without doing anything: which is a phase that will pass ...

but it isn't a matter of phase ....

It's a matter of you want to seek ways for what isn't working on the way that you want, you know..change, try to do different..

We don't need to find reasons to live ...

If we are here, we are already the reason..
yes, I am still depressed, but I'm seeking to improve!

Isn't easy, but we need to fight.. life is everything.. and at least I am looking my life in a different way, and that simple thing is changing my life little by little, one step at time! =)


 
stephaniempty stephaniempty
18-21, F
3 Responses May 23, 2012

I am so glad you said "yes" to getting on a journey to seek truth and true happiness. It all starts inside. Praise God for continuing to bless you and keep you. And thank you for sharing your story and becoming an example of a success story.

Wow! I am happy that someone like me who have the same issue such as 'inferiority complex do find ways to change! Your story is an encouragement for the people like us who also suffer...Thank you for sharing your stories! Hope one day I can achieve the same feeling like that day!

Hey life is complecated .... <br />
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We do wats best ... An try our best to live ... Its always been ups an downs ... Ever since i know my self ...<br />
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Still wont give up ... Am cheasing my dreams witch soon will be tru after god well ... <br />
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I admir you ... Metter ov fact i never been to this websaite ... I was searching on how to make the best choices in life ... <br />
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Then your blog pop ... And trust me that is a sing For you .. Since am the first one who comment bk ... <br />
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Best wishes .. Good luck ..!!!