Eating Me Out..

this depression is really eating every bit of me..i dont know..
i hate this..
i know its not our wish to love or hate but i must go through it..
i cant even share this with my parents..
i have only one trusted friend with whom i can be true..
the rest taunt me..
if i walk beside a river or some sort of that with any friend who knows that i have depression,they taunt saying "hey dont jump into it saying depression ok..if u are feeling so plz say it before you do that ok so that i wont be in trouble.."
to them this is a joke..but 1000s of my friends who suffer from depression all over the world knows the real pain..

i feel when we have someone who accepts it truly they are n danger..
coz if i feel something wrong or unusual in his behaviour like if
he forgets to say a good morning i get agitated..
i feel the relationship is going to end..
i cry for no reason..

people who dont know this remark me that "you are diseased..lean..are you not eating any stuff??"
they dont know "i am with a horrible stuff"..

i couldnt even attend my final exams with confidence..

dear friendsd pls pray for me..
god bls..