I've had major depressive episodes before, but this one is different.  All of a sudden, out of nowhere, this feeling of rage starts building up in me and I just want to smash my head against a wall.  I also become really bitchy when the rage is happening and anyone who tries to talk to me really gets it from me.  Most of the time I'm just depressed, but the rage scares me because I don't know how to deal with that or why it is happening.
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8 Responses Jun 2, 2012

are you able to discern the stages of emotions that build ( that is you go through ) as you move into rage ?

rage is very unhealthy for you and your body maybe you can count to 10 and calm down ther are anger management classes talk to a friend get what s bothering you out of your system good luck vinny




Hello EP user,I have the same problem,I suffer from sever clinical depression,and have done so since birth(so I found out at 55 years of age).<br />
Even though I am on medication for the depression and it does help quite a bit,it does not stop me from getting the rage for no apparent reason,usually when I am playing games with my cousin(backgammon,scrabble).<br />
I do hold many things about my life hidden and believe this does build up and is the main cause of the flair-ups.<br />
I normally go shooting when this happens,then I am pretty good for a while.

I'm going through exactly the same thing. I get so angry at times that my body starts to tremble and i just want it all out. Once in anger i started to beat myself and it still wasnt enough so i went to cutting. That did calm me down but i ended up hurting myself and it really wasnt worth it. <br />
Now, when ever i feel that i am starting to get angry i just completely change my physical situation. Like if i'm in my kitchen, i move to my bedroom, come onto EP read stories here...or watch a episode of my fav show...when i feel that the anger has fizzled out...i eat something...maybe have tea...read a book...<br />
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Just try to remember that your happiness and well being is more important than your anger. These episodes of rage are probably because some bottled up emotions you have held onto and now they are exploding out and its beyond your control. You can also try enrolling into a martial arts class where you can actually hit something in a safe environment. You wont have to divert anger then you'll be spending it out.

U need to control the anger inside u :)