Who I Am

I am 51 and have suffered from depression for most of my life.  I have been in the hospital twice last time for 30 days inpatient had 12 ECT done and 2 1/2 months of outpatient.  Been on alot of meds but still get very depressed and I have sucidal thoughts alot.  I am very weary of not feeling good.  I can not get out of bed alot of times and spend alot of times non functioning.  I have isolated myself from all family and friends.  I don't like to talk to them because they think I just need to get over it.  God, I wish it was that easy because I sure would.  I have no memory of fun and happiness.  I am lonely and sad.
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51-55, F
Apr 17, 2007