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I'm Lost.

Im young & i met a guy 4 yrs ago.He cheated on me i left him, we lived together for 2 out of the 4. My parents never liked him but learned to like him.I dont know what i did for him to cheat, I miss him and he's apologized begged me to go back with him,i'd like to but my family just hates him & if I ever go back with him I'm out of the family . Its been 10 months since we ended to keep me busy I have 2 part-time jobs so i work 7 days & i only go home to eat, bathe and sleep. I work as a home health aide and its taking a toll on me because Ive hurt my back so Ive been having a hard time since I
m only 5 ft..Im also a cashier at a grocery store.. I feel lonesome and hopeless. I also have college to think about but i think I won't be able to go in fall so I'm waiting for spring time..The reason why I cant is I have family to help financially and I feel that if i go i'll just be a mess because i'll never concentrate..Im hispanic so my culture is very strict with relationships & life. A girl from where i come from is expected to be wed forcefully or voluntarily by 16 & even though I live here the expectations are the same. I'm only 18 & I'm just tired of getting judged by actions at myh age.I know i have so much to do but I dont see it. I just stay quiet work and hold it all in..Im Sorry its so long but I needed to let some stuff out.
aniilog aniilog 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1, 2012

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I've had depression for 5 years so I am very much aware of the toll it takes on someone. <br />
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I'd begin the search for a new job as best as I can if I were you. I know it's to not an easy search, but I sense it's in your best interest to.<br />
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I can't imagine going back to an unfaithful significant other. But then again, I've never experienced it. <br />
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The other thing I think needs to be in order is the search for a better support system. Clearly you need a little distance between you and your family. <br />
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Read my story "Dealing with it myself" about my quest to help others overcome their battles with depression.