I'm dying inside. I'm in love and I think it's falling apart. I'm so depressed with day to day life. My depression only increases. There can be nothing wrong, yet everything sucks. I've started on my medication again. I know that will help. But also, It won't cure all. My relationship is turning to **** but I can't let it go. I'm in love with him. And I can't be the one to say goodbye... I just want to feel better! I'm not exactly suicidal, but I do often think about death. I can't die yet though, there's so much more to experience. If I die, I won't know what happens once I'm gone! I won't feel the happiness again. I'm terrified of myself though. Terrified I'll try to kill myself on impulse like before.