it's my day off and I woke up late today.. I just felt so tired and slow the whole day then I decided that I would just get up and drive to the library and drive around because that always made me feel better.. but today seeing everybody going around doing so many things just confused and depressed me more. the only place I feel like I belong is home, and I know that is partly why I am depressed.. but I just don't have the motivation nor energy to go outside and do things. I am a bit of an introvert so I know it's ok to want to stay home a little bit.. but it's getting too excessive.. I'm just hoping it's depression doing this to me and it can be fixed. I just hope my soon to be pschyciatrist will have some medication to help me and won't just be like "well obviously the problem is your not doing enough things to prevent your depression". I just hope I have enough time to win back the trust and respect of all the friends i'm isolating.