No One Else Knows

Hi. I suffer from depression in the summer, possibly a form of summer SAD, but undiagnosed as I've never told anyone either. Just this summer, it ended mid-August and for the last two weeks or so I am so relieved to just be back to normal, feel like myself again. But my point is that I have definitely felt depression. I know the crippling feeling of despair, like nothing matters, there is no point to anything and you just have a cloud of despair around you all the time. I know of nothing worse. If you need to talk, message me.

I have depression too. I've been where you are. I lived through being a teenager and survived it. I can help you. I can clear a lot of things up for you. Honestly, you're confused about a couple of things. If I'm going to help you though, you need to message me. I can't contact you. So if you want to talk about it with someone who has a lot of experience, feel free. I will treat you like an adult and I will take you seriously. I just want to show you a couple of things that may well help a lot. I'm an adult and I have perspective you don't. So feel free to write if you want to.

There is no shame in taking meds. I find the stigma around depression is only enhanced by such statements. I have multiple chronic illnesses and without meds, I wouldn't be able to get out of bed. Depression is an unbalance in brain chemistry. Your levels are just off. It is not just being sad. Depression manifests itself in numerous ways. Some of us need the meds to add that chemical back so we can lead normal lives. Some of us need more than just therapy. I respect your choice to seek other treatments but don't be quite so quick to hate meds. I used to and now I have to take 6 prescriptions and 4 supplements a day to survive due to having dysautonomia, fibromyalgia, hypothyroidism, anemia, and chronic faligue. All of it really is under the umbrella of my dysautonomia which is a nervous system disorder so it affects every automatic function of your body. You never know what tomorrow will bring so never say never. Maybe I'm just being a little sensitive. idk

I respect the fact you dont want to be put on any kind of medication. If your not going to do that you should at least see a therapist. Someone you can at least talk to. There are two kinds you can see. One will give you medications that will help you balance your moods or you can see a therapest who you can talk to and help you cope with your depression. I would recomend you seek some kind of help.

I have depression myself and have had it for app. 5 years. You have a long road ahead of you but you need to carefully figure out how to get the help you need.