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I Battle Depression

Help Me, Please

By: swimcyclerun
Written on September 3rd, 2012
Age: 16-17 , Female
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  • nephandai

    Okay, I'm going to suggest a very radical theory as to what is going on. You need drama in your life. It seems to me, that you are getting depressed because there is not enough conflict going on around you. When we have nothing to stress over, nothing to worry about, nothing to get an adrenaline rush for, then we start craving it. It is a natural process. A little stress can be a great thing. Don't avoid stressful situations, do things to spark adrenaline highs, skydiving for instance. Things of this nature. Hope it helps =)

    Sep 7, 2012
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  • jondoen

    I understand, maybe. So maybe this will help or it won't.



    It's quite stark looking at the reality of it all, and its easy to just feel insignificant or that it doesn't have a point or purpose. And you'd be right.



    However the purpose of life is to be lived and for all accounts you get at least one shot with it. So instead of going insane just take a step back and look at what you have and have accomplished. You might only be a teenager now, but you can grow to be so much more. You might be someone who helps humankind make that next small step forward.



    Purpose of life is what you make of it. Go. Live. Be Awesome.

    Sep 7, 2012
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  • SeriouslyWhatTheCrap

    Did any specific incident cause this to start? When did you notice yourself doing it? I did the same thing after making a big, life-changing decision a few years ago. I started to feel like, "what's the point of any decisions we make" yada yada. Unfortunately for me.... I've just found myself digging deeper and deeper into that hole.

    Sep 7, 2012
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  • CuriousKansan

    One of my favorite sayings "I am one thought away from thinking." I was in the same situtation as you are now. One thing I noticed for myself is when I have that attitude I'm going to die, and what's the point. I don't get anything done. Fear of death will freeze you into doing nothing. I made the decision to do the best I can with the life I have now. I use to always think about yesterday, and wishes for the tomorrow. I just pissed on today. I love helping others, sometimes this helps me get out of myself. I hope this helps.

    Sep 6, 2012
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  • gnokrojam

    I re-read your post and all of your responses and have been thinking. The wondering of "why" reminds me a lot of when I was your age. (I'm 55. Male. No, I'm not looking for a date.) I too wondered about the point of living our lives out and then it all comes to nothing. In my case I did become depressed. (I guess that is why I jumped to that conclusion with you.) Actually, I think it is a very good question to ask. You've heard the same thing from others here, that they have wrestled with that same question, as have philosophers. In my case, my parents had always dragged me to church. I fought it all the way and hated every moment of it. But then I came up against this big philosophical question about why I was here and what the point of my life, or anyone's life, is. That drove me into a deep depression. But it also drove me to reconsider God and the Bible. And I found that it was reasonable to believe in God. And I found that the Bible has a lot of support behind it that confirms it is true. And the Bible is God's way of telling us about Him and ourselves. And I know that I will die, and I do not fear it. I don't know all of the why's, but I am not worried about it. God does know all the why's and I trust Him to take care of them, and me. Best wishes at figuring it out.

    Sep 5, 2012
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  • gnokrojam

    Never make an important decision while depressed. Realize that you aren't thinking straight and it is not the time to spend a lot of money, do something damaging to a relationship, or something you cannot undo. Suicide is an important decision. Wait. Your thinking will improve.

    Hang in there.

    Sep 4, 2012
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  • sahilsharma67

    a person who dont think about death is sike but the person who think about death then that person called inteligent and that person have more chace to get peicefull.i dont think wye peoples scared from the death.we should look death peoples its enspire us to finde the extrem truth before death

    Sep 3, 2012
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  • KourtneyFoxx

    Same! I get really scared sometimes when I think about death,and that one


    day ill be old&wrinkly,just waiting to die... I don't believe in 'God' soo I think that's what scares me the most about death.. Knowing that when I'm gone,I'm gone&thats it. If I believed in God then I'd probably be fine with it tbhhh.

    Sep 3, 2012
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  • cooler15

    Maybe its cause u need some exsitment in your life do something that make u feel alive

    Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      yeah i guess so, thank you :-)

      Sep 3, 2012
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  • martymcfly1274

    Well if it makes you feel better you arent along feeling this way.

    Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      woo!

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • martymcfly1274

      I myself battle depression fighting thoughts of death at times. Wishing I could just disappear from this world. I have times where I have anxiety attacks for no reason what so ever. I live in a room of darkness feeling lonely and helpless. My only friends are people I only talk to through facebook, EP, or an online game(Star Trek Online). I only leave the house to get groceries and or stand on the front porch and look at the world that makes me feel like an outsider.

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      i don't want to die- i want to live, i just don't want to die when i'm old, and you know you're never going to come back. you're gone, for ever and ever and ever.

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • martymcfly1274

      Your spirit lives on. You will go to heaven where you will spend time with loved ones.

      Sep 3, 2012
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  • gmckdude711

    It appears to be a fair amount of skepticism towards your future which is a part of my own depression battles so I know your pain. We are here for a purpose and trying to figure it out is a daily quest for anyone and I think that you need to keep that in mind.

    Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      i don't give why i'm here, i just don't want to die, i'm scared

      Sep 3, 2012
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  • hammerguy69

    That's not exactly depression, just fear and apathy for the future. Waking up and wanting to die every day, now that is depression

    Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      i guess, well i don't know what to do about it all!?

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • hammerguy69

      Don't do anything. You're a teen, your are gonna have these feelings, it happens to every one, so don't worry about it. Trust me

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      i guess, so you think i should just smile and forget it all and just be happy :(?

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • hammerguy69

      I know it's not easy, but yes. You should try to forget it. Yes, it's true that we will all die eventually, but does it really matter if you lived a wonderful life? You should be focusing on the important things, like being happy

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      okay, thank you very much :-)

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • hammerguy69

      no problem :)

      Sep 3, 2012
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  • Junkard

    It's simple, stop thinking about we're gonna die anyways crap and start living the life you desire, it's that simple, you've got great things in your life, don't throw that away with that stupid attitude.

    Sep 3, 2012
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    • swimcyclerun

      yeah i guess, i'm just so fed up thinking of it! i mean i can't wait to get married, have kids. i'm just scaring myself so much.

      Sep 3, 2012
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    • Junkard

      Yeah, you are. Just enjoy the things you have in life and go for your goals without thinking too much about death and the future.

      Remember, the road to happiness and success isn't walked in a single step.

      Sep 3, 2012
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