I Battle Depression
okay. i'm 16 and a really bubbly girl, i'm the top academic student in my year, i do lots of different sports, i'm a model, i have a boyfriend who loves me, i enjoy life.
but recently? all i have thought about is death. dying. being dead for ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. why are we dying to live, if we are just living to die? why do we work so hard, to get a job, to get married, to succeed, when we all just die anyway!? my attitude towards everything nowadays is "**** it, we all end up dead anyway". i want to be happy again, i want to be me, i want to be so happy like i was, i don't want to speak to a physciatrist or anything, i've spoke to my boyfriend and bestfriend and they think i'm nuts. i just don't want to die.
HELP ME PLEASE, I'M NOT SUICIDAL BTW!
but recently? all i have thought about is death. dying. being dead for ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. why are we dying to live, if we are just living to die? why do we work so hard, to get a job, to get married, to succeed, when we all just die anyway!? my attitude towards everything nowadays is "**** it, we all end up dead anyway". i want to be happy again, i want to be me, i want to be so happy like i was, i don't want to speak to a physciatrist or anything, i've spoke to my boyfriend and bestfriend and they think i'm nuts. i just don't want to die.
HELP ME PLEASE, I'M NOT SUICIDAL BTW!