Deep Inside

Deep inside me, there's a voice. He tells me lies, deceits and fears. Growing darker everyday.
He tells me everything wrong with me, why I'm not good enough, why people don't like me, why I'm not good at anything. It's been so long, it's the only voice I hear anymore. He causes paranoid thoughts, and delusional thinking. He bogs down my mind with grief and tears. Dear God, why can't you stop this. I lost the meaning of positive thoughts. I lost the urge to battle through the day. Half the time, I don't see the point in getting out of bed at all. Because it's better to be asleep, then awake in my own mind. This voice has become me.
RonGoyo RonGoyo
18-21, M
1 Response Sep 9, 2012

... yeah. Thats happened to me too. =/ Still does sometimes.