Hi, im a 14 year old girl who has been battling depression for the past month, and i never EVER thought it would be so hard in my life. Almost everyday, i cry myself to sleep, almost everyday im dying inside, but with the magic of a smile to cover everything inside, UP, no one knows that im struggling. i wish i could explain why i have depression, but i dont know, i do not know why and thats what hurts the most. my step dad left me when i was 10 because he punched my mother in the face and left us with nothing, so maybe its that and im still trying to deal with it because my mom is struggling with money and it kills me to see it. or maybe its the fact that i havent spent time with my dad inforever. he left me my mom and brother when i was 4. now, living without a dad is the hardest thing to do. personally, i think its things buliding on top of emotions that makes me so depressed and now finally, im to full of it and just letting it all out. i started to cut aswell but im trying my BEST to stop, i havent cut in 3 days and im pretty proud. i need help though, no im not crazy, i just need a professinol who can HELP me and i can tell my feelings too because really no one i know has been through what im going through and they try and its just so hard. my mom doesnt even know, i need some advice, alittle bit of inspiration. please.