I Hate Myself....

Since I could remember...I've always been battling depression, aneroxia, and self injury. I keep trying myself to stop, but I can't. I've always been put down by my parents, some friends, teachers, and other people. I just for once want to be accepted. I want to be that tiny size 2 girl again. I'm disgusted when I see size 5 or size 6. I want to stop craving cutting my skin open, I want to stop thinking at times how I can make everything end. I know I need help....but I have no idea where to go.......
wanttobesmallagain wanttobesmallagain
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 24, 2012

I would say you need to start loving yourself for who you truly are, and accept yourself as you are. People do not care if you're size 2 or 5. Size 5 is probably more healthier looking. I think if you want to get help first you should make an appointment with a therapist, then maybe go to group therapy for the eating disorder. Believe that you are good enough, and get the perfectionist out of your head. No one will ever be perfect. It's too stressful and a waste of time to try to be perfect, just be yourself. You will be happier, and people will like you the way you are, and if they don't that's their problem.