One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I have been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, depression and anxiety.  AND ITS ALL BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!! So yea, maybe i have the symptoms, but do not pigeon hole me.  do not tell me what i am, or what you think i will do.  I am me, and nothing else.  There are millions of facets to every human's personality.  THIS WILL NOT DEFINE WHO I AM OR WHO I CHOOSE TO BECOME!!!!!!!!!!!
SunshineDaydream SunshineDaydream
26-30, F
3 Responses May 16, 2007

Yes it's very frustrating to be labelled and told you are such and such! It's also very disheartning to get such devstating news. Our first reaction is usally anger, then denial and so on and so forth. Give yourself some time and go easy on yourself. You are right no one defines you but you. Good for you! But refusing to accept the diagnoses is not going to help you either. Acceptance is always the best policy. We all have good and bad and we must accept both sides as part of who we are. When you can truly accept the good and the bad things will change for the best. I wish you well.

i know you feel frustrated. but i don't think its cause they're trying to tell you what you are. i think you're frustrated because they can't figure out exactly what you are. you feel like they're labeling you. but maybe you feel pissed off because you dont have one specific thing to belong to. me and my sister both have manic depression and it took 3 physchologists for me and 4 for my sister for us to be diagnosed properly. i would get pissed off all the time because i knew what they were saying i felt like and the meds they were giving me weren't helping and they werent the emotions i was experiencing. i know what it feels like to not know how you feel ...or especially why you feel it. if that makes any sense to you.<br />
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hope going on.<br />
be happy with life.<br />
don't let this beat you down.<br />
you'll go stronger and better everyday. <br />
they're just trying to help<br />
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hope you feeling good<br />
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I have taken this approach before. I am pretty self controlled when it comes to my paticular actions. It's a battle though. I sometimes become angry or defensive and it's hard to control. Talking in even a forum like this one will help alleviate some of the feelings you have day to day. Good luck though