**** Up.

**** UP n. (fkp):
I stick my fingers down my throat to make myself feel pretty. If i eat a cookie, I have to purge it. I don't allow myself to eat. I'm overweight. EDNOS.
I disassemble shaving razors then hide the razor under my phone battery for comfort. I use that razor to slice up my thighs to try to take care of myself. CUTTER.
I lie to everyone. No matter how much I complain, I didn't want to leave the mental hospital. The doctor didn't really molest me. I made that up. I lie to my therapist. I lie to my psychiatrist. I lie to my parents. I lie to my friends. COMPULSIVE LIAR.
I never smoked. I want to. I don't want to move to Florida. I don't have the motivation to get good grades. I don't have the motivation to get up off my *** and do something with my ******* life. DEPRESSED.
I want people to feel sorry for me. I want people to leave me alone. I want people to bully me. I want people to love me. I want to kill myself. ATTENTION *****.
That's what a **** up is.
somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing
22-25, F
Nov 27, 2012