What Am I?

really why am i here?
i hate life and i hate humanity in general even myself inclded
i don't wanna live anymore
am useless to humanity just consuming oxygin
i've been thinking for te past few days about one reason to not kill myself and i still havn't find one yet
on top of that am unlovable...by most people atleast
tariq1990 tariq1990
22-25, M
3 Responses Nov 30, 2012

Thank god for everything Tariq

You should def. seek counseling right now. Do not wait. You need help and there are others who have felt the same way as you feel and have overcome. You too can get help and do not have to be alone in this situation. First I would call the suicide hotline @ 1-800-273-8255 to get immediate help and someone to talk to. They are available 24/7. After that I would seek out a psychiatrist for medicine and also a therapist for someone to talk about the things that make you feel this way. I have been in your very shoes and got help. I am still dealing with depression but I have someone I can talk about things that bother me.

I know how you feel, exactly. I tried suicide 2 weeks ago, it might be the sixth time I try. Next time I'll try harder, I'm gonna buy a pistol and shoot my head, I can't stand anymore, I tried everything, all meds, treatments, just got out from a psychiatric hospital, I'm done with life...

Seek out friends and family for support. Ask for help. Also continue any treatment plans that your doctor has you on and call them if you feel like you are not getting the help you need or want.

It's been 16 years "getting help"

am sorry...