My Deepest Depressive Feelings.

 I'm so empty, I'm broken and don't know why. I'm like a ship stuck in frozen water, cold, empty, sinking fast. 
I'm swallowed by the dark, consumed by all that I hate, my soul fading away, my light slowly burning out like an overused candle. 
I know I have friends who care, a select few that truly love me and would do anything for me. And I love them all so dearly. But so often I still feel alone. 
I'm trapped in a vile world, where it seems everything is out to get me, and even those few trying to help me, can only do so much. They're the light guiding me through the darkness, but I'm losing the sight needed to follow. 
I'm slowly losing myself in every aspect. My heart is a room with a locked door that I've lost the key to. 
I'm trapped in a veil of darkness so thick I may never see the light of day, so to all of those who I love, I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry for any and every time I've failed you. 

Devin55 Devin55
18-21, M
6 Responses Dec 2, 2012

I wish I could take away all the cold and dark from you and replace it with warmth and sun.

Quite a few have tried, but it takes someone specific to bring light to my dark and abysmal world.

i feel the same way a lot. It's like you know people do care a lot for you and you know they do, yet there is still this nagging feeling that you dont care about youreself.


Devin, you know I'm always here for you, don't feel in such a way, you are worth so much more :)

Thank you so much :)

You are welcome :)

I totally understand what you are saying here. I am so sorry, I would do anything to help you. Thank you for never hurting me. I trust you 100 %. I'll always be here for you. <3

That means a lot to me, than you :)

Devin, I love you so much. I really would do anything for you. You're my best friend, my brother. You've never done anything to hurt me and I trust you more than anyone. Until the end <3

And you've always been there for me, I live you sooooooooooooo much!!!!!

It's the least I can do for such a good friend :)

Dev, you are not a failure. You are always there for everyone. I love you...Until The End:)

Love you too, until the end :)