Here I Go Again

Hello everyone.

I am in another bad episode. I am struggling with "how did this happen?"  Are people with depression weak people?  What did I do to make this come on so strong again?  What am I doing wrong?

I hate being here.  It is such a dark and lonely place to be. 

It was becoming too much of a struggle to try to pretend everything was OK.  I gave in to the feelings and thoughts.  I almost feel ashamed that I wasn't strong enough to keep up the battle and keep functioning like a normal person. 

It is what it is.  Why can't I be normal?

Me
headsortales headsortales
56-60, F
1 Response Dec 7, 2012

At this moment i am feeling the same way..... I dnt know or can explain it ....just feels draining.......