Please Help

I usually never do this, but right now in desperate. I don't like sharing my feelings but I'm at my breaking point and I want help. I've never felt this horrible before, it started two days ago. I suddenly stopped wanting to do things I normally do every day. I stopped playing video games I was recently almost addicted to, I blow off my friends when they want me to go with them somewhere because I don't have the energy anymore, I don't want to talk to anyone except my two closest friends, I dont want to do any schoolwork at all, I don't think I even care if I do my homework or not. All I want to do is lay in bed and stare at the tv and do nothing but cry once in a while. I need help, I didn't realize it before but now I do and I don't want to feel this worthless and sad anymore. I just want to get better but I don't know how, I don't have an understanding family, they don't believe in depression. They believe anyone who acts depressed is doing it for attention, unless they kill themselves then maybe they really were depressed. But I dont want to kill myself in order for my family to realize what's really going on with me. I don't know who to talk to or what to do anymore, I'm so completely lost. It feels like I'm just waiting for each day to pass by, hoping for something to happen but nothing ever does. Yesterday I couldn't even get out of bed and go to school so my dad gave up and decided to let me sleep the whole day and call me in sick. Someone please help me, please who do I talk to? Who do I go to for help? I honestly don't know how much longer I can stand feeling this horrible...
BlackWolf2247 BlackWolf2247
13-15, F
3 Responses Dec 8, 2012

Your family is backwards and do NOT have the answers. Seek help and support from outside of your family instead, talk to friends, your doctor. Your biggest enemy right now is that nobody knows, and you're the only one who can do something about that.

People really can help. I felt the same way and finally said something. It might take all the courage you can muster, but make an appointment with your counselor at school. Just do it, don't think about it. I find action comforting, because I know at the very least that I'm trying. So do it! You don't have to live that way:)

Go talk to a counselor, your school counselor, they won't judge you and they'll listen. Please get help sweetheart.