Battle?

This group is called "I Battle Depression", but I don't think I battle it at all. I let it control me, and I have no idea what to do to turn the tables and get back my life, rather than just letting everything wash over me and pile up.

Every night I go to sleep thinking "tomorrow will be different"; tomorrow comes, and it isn't, and I feel sad and guilty because I haven't changed my life yet. I'm on medication, I have a good doctor, and yet I feel so detached from everything. It's all just so new to me. I don't know where to begin.
spiralist spiralist
22-25, F
3 Responses May 18, 2007

I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes you feel like it's your fault you're not better yet. I don't know if this is your experience, but with me, one of the hardest parts to deal with is having a different thought about my own depression every few hours. Sometimes I'm mad at myself, sometimes I'm grateful just to be alive, sometimes I'm ashamed, etc. I know you've heard this a million times before, but HANG IN THERE. Hope is there as long as you keep trying.

Depression is new for you? did something traumatic just happen to you? if so, then give yourself some time to heal. remember, it takes time, just like a broken leg. things will get better, but u gotta fight and that is the hardest thing to do when u are depressed. just remember there is always someone there for you on here

maybe just try to get used to the medication. I started feeling better after some time. And then you could try to restart some of the things you used to do before you got depressive... that's what I did. I hope you'll get the control back. Fingers crossed.