No Rhyme Or Reason

I have good, loving parents. I have good friends, I have a wonderful sister whom I love very much. I am majoring in Marine Engineering and probably have a good, bright career ahead of me. Amd I cant seem to be happy. I just dont feel it. I dont like to whine so only a very few people know about.

Its just...there is no rhyme or reason for it. I just dont understand.
drivethrough drivethrough
22-25, M
2 Responses Dec 15, 2012

Do you feel something is missing from your life? Are you completly happy with the carea field you chose. Is there something you want to do, but are affarid what others will think?

Hey, I KNOW a lot of things are missing from my life. I love a girl who lives on another continent but dont wanna tell her because we.are great friends and I want that to remain so. Also, I dont bekive in long distance relationships. So at least for a few years, thats a dead end. I am not particularly find of my career. I want to be a writer and if I may say so myself, I'm not half bad with a pen. But writers do need dayjobs. And there is this really sweet girl I know who is like a sister to me and has a lot of complications in her life. I want to help her find a way out of that. But I know all of these things will happen eventualy. I can be patient and take a step at a time and get there.

Then why do I feel so depressed? Am I not even strong enough to fight my own demons?

maybe right now you need to just fight your own demons , and not your friends. It's ok to be there for her, but you really need to be there for yourself. Sometimes, people like that drain us of all our good energy, not intentional, but they do. and may I ask who is there for you? If your goal is to write, then write. If that's what you really want to do, then your other job is just something to get you by for now. never give up on your dreams or yourself.

It sounds hereditary. Try a low dose of antidepressanrs for a bit and see if you feel better. Best wishes!
Tai