2 And A Half Years Of This ****

So, it's only been a year and a half since I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. It was only six months after my parents and everyone else found out about my self harm.
I know I have probably dealt with depression for about 6 years.
I have been self harming since I was about 8 or 9. Mostly pulling out my hair, making myself sick and sometimes cutting. My parents didn't notice because no one around them had ever been in that situation and I know my dad has had depression since he was 15 or something because he was suicidal when he was 40 and my psychologist told me it wasn't possible to just have that and she said he probably was like that at 15. His parents probably didn't notice because they weren't really apart of his life. Anyway, I have been self harming for a long time and when I was diagnosed with depression... I screamed and said there was no way I was going on prozac or whatever the ****... and so recently I am about to give up- I think about what happened and how I have pulled through before and how I can do it again. You are all strong and I love you all <3
agonisant98 agonisant98
13-15, F
Jan 8, 2013