I Feel Like I Should Be Better By Now

My depression arose during a particularly stressful exam period at university. I ended up taking a year out and that helped a lot. Now I'm back at uni in the last year of my course trying to finish it off to get a degree.

I'm a lot better than I was, but I still feel like I'm not at 100%, and I don't know why. I guess it doesn't help that I don't really enjoy what I'm studying anymore, but it's been a year and a half now since my "breakdown" (using the term very loosely) and I feel like I should have recovered.

Am I right to feel like I should be better, or does depression linger? I don't want to feel this tired and frustrated for the rest of my life.

Also, I find myself listening to music that, though beautiful, is also quite melancholy or wistful - for example http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwpBmEj7-AI

I know it can bring me close to tears at times, but I still listen to it. Is this normal? Why do I do this?
mylifeinpictures mylifeinpictures
22-25, M
1 Response Jan 13, 2013

Depression can linger. I feel like you it's been long enough.
We will never get back to where we were 100%
Depression changes us.
We have to figure out who we are now and in us find happiness...that don't happen over night.
Yes, you probably will be 100% again when you recognise and like the new you