Being Happy Takes A Lot Of Energy

I feel like I'm still not getting enough rest...or I'm coming down with a cold.

Lately, I've been feeling pretty good - emotionally, that is. Friends are commenting on my improved outlook and attitude; I smile and laugh more like my "old self"; I'm more accepting of my circumstances; I'm more interested in living my life.

But it is exhausting!

Physically, I feel drained and lethargic. I tend to feel "sleepy" at very odd times (for me). I lose interest in activities quickly.

I start to wonder and worry if I've just been "stuffing" my feelings, and my current malaise is a result. I want to stay ahead of any regressive feelings or attitudes, but being run-down is not going to help.

BozoBuckets BozoBuckets
51-55, M
3 Responses Jan 18, 2013

I feel like this can be draining. Every day can bring a different challenge, or worse yet maybe, each day brings the same 'stuff'. Mood definetly affects me...brings me way down, i get lots of colds :(. I tell myself over and over "just try to be positive"...or i catch myself getting frustrated with people or things......*sigh*

The healing process runs in cycles. It circles for awhile. I don't understand the feeling good, yet tired tho.

Just started today really...and I don't get it either...that's why I'm wondering if maybe I'm just experiencing a short-term emotional reprieve.

Get some vitamins. Plus, it's winter. I'd love to sleep til spring. I'm proud of you Boz. Some people don't even try.

Thanks, hon....keeping my chin up. Gotta stay in the flow, ya know.

why not give in to the lethargy? take a nap in the middle of the day if you are able. sometimes i just get under the covers, sprawl out with the tv on drift --off to sleep. i do wake up dopey with strange and mystical dreams that i try to piece together and figure out. i like the strange dreams. i think they have a message as garbled as they seem. i then grab some coffee and awake a second time. what did that accomplish i ask myself? probably nothing. do i feel guilty - not really.

sometimes weather can play havoc with moods. putting up a false front can be exhausting. and detrimental. easy for me to say i'm retired and don't work. feelings stuffed? i just watch the sad tv ads about abused and neglected dogs and the accompanying music and have a good cry. angry? i have been known to hit the wall with my hand and wail "OH NOOOOO".

hugs boz - hope you get out from under.

Thank you. I used to nap in the middle of the day when I had opportunity. You're right...somehow those midday dreams seem a bit more intuitive and meaningful.

The weather's been cold...very cold and raw lately. That may be having an impact.

I just want to make sure that I can stay positive, and that I'm not going to be blind-sided by any emotional issues. I've been feeling like I've turned a corner - for the better - but I'm hoping that my current outlook isn't just a short-term rally.