Woke Up In A Pool Of My Own Blood!!

I have come so close to to dying because of my own ignorance and foolish mistakes, the pain I feel everyday is too much for me not just mentally but physically as well. My time has come to an end I just wish I could end my life quickly without the fear of dying or having regrets, I know I sound pathetic but if you are reading this at least someone understands my depression. I am 19 years old and very soon my pathetic existence will come to an end.