End It

Lethargic, the constant state of my being. I find myself these days contemplating the choice of suicide and I don't really know why. I am not even in a truly sad state of being when the thoughts come but I am in such a slump of being that I feel as though the only way to change things is to find out what's next. I see it as some sort of twisted freedom from the boredom of my life. There is so much out there that I want to do, things to see, people to meet but every day, every hour, I just sit here while it all passes me by. Why do I do it? Why do I continue to sit here in this cubile, continue to go home to a messy apartment to someone who won't ever be at the level of commitment I need, continue to sit there and watch the tv show all the people I wish I could be. Bored to death, that's how its going to end. No rhyme or trauma to the matter just... gone.
IWishIUnderstood IWishIUnderstood
22-25, M
1 Response Jan 25, 2013

thats ridiculous. stupid, actually. but thats my opinion. although i do understand that people cope with things differently but really if its gotten to that poing then break up with whoever u are with that doesnt wanna commit, and do something with your life. yes, do something. that doesnt include sitting there staring at a tv screen. u wanna go out places?? go. u wanna meet people?? do it. i dont understand what is stopping u man life is short make good use of it. and u r still pretty young too. ha if i knew u i would drag u along to come club hopping with me this weekend but dittums :P
but you have legs, i think u can go on by yourself and find yourself a buddy to keep u company on the dance floor. but dont just sit there. the great clock of ur life cannot rewind