I Want The Happy Me Back*

Honestly, i cant tell you where i lost it. It must have been the heartbreak, the fake friends, closed doors to dreams or just pressure from growing up and fitting in. Am tired of trying to get people to understand me ,to laugh with me and share life. I know am a little choosy but i dont ask for much i only want the most expensive thing to human beings ,time. Am just asking for a little time to tell you how am feeling ,whats going on and what am up to. Well, guess its too much to ask. I have no outlet anymore just a huge pit in my heart where i store all this feelings of loneliness, nightmares and sadness. I want the old happy me back but she is just been locked up in a cell and its like i threw away the key. Am tired of this depression eating me up and worries of the future and if there ever will be someone to just understand love me the way i are.