Struggle

I'm crying a little as I type this.... I'm tired of searching for help... I'm tired of being the strong one and moving forward.... I'm tired of being depressed. I've been on 7 different anti depressants and I refuse to take anymore.....I'm feeling alone and quite depressed today... I suffer from anxiety as well. I try to be sooo strong in my life for my daughter. She is the only reason I keep moving forward.... I don't know if I would be alive or what I would be doing if I wasn't blessed with her. My friends, I don't talk to, I don't want to overwhelm them with me and my anxiety and my depression. I don't feel close to my family to talk to them. I'm hurting so bad... And I am so depressed but certain things in my life.... I feel so alone... I don't think there is any hope for me honestly... Do I dare kill myself, No. My daughter needs me I think... But she doesn't need a mom that is like this... Suffering, anxiety, depressed and moody as hell. I don't know... Sigh.