Lately me and my mom have ben argueinf 24/7. I have like 10 friends that actually care about me. I can't tell anyone anything because they always feel the need to top my situation, even though it's nothing near how bad mine is. My 'best friend' (mariah) doesnt talk to me much anymore and i cant even talk to her about personal things because she always tries to make it seem okay or tell me not to do something bad and it's ******* annoying. She cant take hints, and she's really slow. The counselor at my school couldnt give two ***** if he tried. He knows i cut myself, he knows i have a bad home situation, yet he never calls me down. I cant force myself down there. That's too weird. He only pays attention to a few people. I tried talking to the other counselors. There are 3 and then 2 interns. I hate the 7th grade counselor and shes also my coach. The 8th grade counselor and i have talked and i told her i never want to speak to her again, which was a lie. She told me mom about me cutting 8 in 7th grade, and she still suspects it but doesnt no ****. She told me 'if i ever hear about this again, i dont know what im going to do. I stopped caring about how i look, what i eat, what i say, its just all over. I feel completely helpless. I need something, someone, anything.