Waking UpWaking up, first thing in the morning is hard for me. All those thoughts rush my brain, "its just another stupid day, I want to go home, you'll get lied to again", I get a headache from trying to fight them. So I try what my therapist said I should do with those thoughts, squash them, but they are bigger than I am and they squash me.
So I get up, again, try and do it all over again. Smile at who ever sees me first, take the dogs out, start my routine. If I stay busy the thoughts are not as loud, but I am tired and sleepy, its a battle between rest and these thoughts.
I'll do it again, walk around, clean the house, go grocery shopping, keep fighting these thoughts that keep me down, but they are always there, "just another stupid day, I want to go home, you'll get lied to again".
solosola 46-50, F 1 Response 0 Jan 27, 2013