A Continuous Battle

I've battled depression on and off for probably 5 years now, with nearly a full year in there without having to deal with it. Unfortunately now I seem to have hit a really rough patch. It's brutal. I literally can't pull myself out of bed in the morning. I set my alarm for a good 10 or 15 minutes early because I know that it's still going to take me half and hour to actually get out of bed. This past Sunday, I pretty much slept all day. I wasn't overtired or anything, I just slept. The other lovely thing that seems to be going on is that my emotions are completely running wild. I'll be fine, and then the slightest thing will just set me off. It can be as simple as someone telling me that they were hanging out with some people while I was in class, or stupid things like that. I go from being neutral (because that seems to be my go-to thing lately) to either raging mad or a sobbing mess. It's exhausting. I don't know what to do about it either. I mean I've talked to some people, they just sort of shrug it off. So I don't even know if this is just going to pass or if I'm just supposed to suck it up and make the best of feeling like this.
beautyofuncertainty beautyofuncertainty
18-21, F
4 Responses Jan 29, 2013

Hang in there guys, 2moro is another day, a better day

Maybe you should have your thyriod checked. A few years ago I felt the same way, very tired and emotional,and it was because I have hypothyriodisim. You may or may not have it, but it's good to see the doctor anyway and have him run some tests, just to make sure it's not anything medically wrong with you. Make sure they rule out anything medical before putting you on any antidepressents.
Most doctors just jump to the conculsion that it's depression without checking to see if anything else is causing this.

i know how u feel. people pretend to care and they say nice things bc its the american way. but they dont really care. if they really cared, theyd do their part to change it even if its not their problem. we all know its not their problem, cuz thats the first thing people say. if thats their attitude, then dont ask how i am or pretend to care. u should read the blog i posted a few days ago titled, u cant handle the truth.

Hey there. You don't give a lot of detailed history, just how you are feeling now. And that's OK. Keep battling is just an exhausting, hope-draining thing to say. I'd rather have you just know that you have that good, stable, happy person still inside you. Your brain is awash in a mix of unbalanced neurotransmitters and you've got to stabilize that and get your brain working for you rather than against you. What I'm saying is.....get to a doctor....a psychiatrist....and get on some medications. It won't solve all your problems immediately but it will begin to lift you out of the hole you are in and build a pad under you to cushion future dips.

And do not delay! If you have been dealing with a rollercoaster for the past 5 years, that is too long already. There is help out there. Good Luck.