I Battle Depression
I'm making a post to a website I just found at 5:30 am after another night of anxiety, depression, and those thoughts I hate having with no sleep. This will probably be buried in the internet but who cares.
I hate so many aspects of my life that its quantified as years of hate. my smile is painted and weary. This mask I wear is a product of society and hence my hatred for it. I don't know anyone that is more alone than I. I thought I had friends, as it turns out their lives are important so I'm at this alone. My family doesn't see my pain, they care but they don't pay attention to the signs. The past 4 years on my birthday, as I blow the candles I wish for the same thing, "I just want to be happy". when I'm asked how things are I say "I'm good", which is an empty response. I have the thoughts I hate as often as I drink water, it's in my head now.
I'm numb and scared with no direction; and miles to go before I sleep.
I hate so many aspects of my life that its quantified as years of hate. my smile is painted and weary. This mask I wear is a product of society and hence my hatred for it. I don't know anyone that is more alone than I. I thought I had friends, as it turns out their lives are important so I'm at this alone. My family doesn't see my pain, they care but they don't pay attention to the signs. The past 4 years on my birthday, as I blow the candles I wish for the same thing, "I just want to be happy". when I'm asked how things are I say "I'm good", which is an empty response. I have the thoughts I hate as often as I drink water, it's in my head now.
I'm numb and scared with no direction; and miles to go before I sleep.
By:
User76
Age:
22-25
