My Story

I battle depression. It took me a while to admit that i even had depression and even longer for me to realize that it is something that i am 'battling'. Almost a year ago things began to change, i don't remember exactly how it happened or whether or not i was aware of it at that time all i know is that something changed. It took me nine long, miserable months for me to tell my mum, who i am really close with that i was unahppy. I don't like talking about how i am feeling, so it was the hardest thing i have ever had to do. Most of all, people saw me as a happy girl. I am from a supportive family. i go to a prominent school and i am very comfortable financially. I get good grades and have lots of friends. i am the last person one would expect to have depression. So after i told my mum she took me to the doctors and they put me on cipralex. that didn't work at first so they upped the dosage and that began to work. it worked for about a month or two and then just stopped. i felt like i was back a square one. i hid it from my family because my mum seemed so happy that i was apparently 'feeling better' and that i would be off the medication soon. to deal with stress of school and everything i began taking naproxen and muscle relaxents, daily and about 8 at a time. i finally just told my mum a few days ago. she was upset i didnt tell her but she understood. i went back to the doctor and he said that i was on the maximum dosage of cipralex so i am going off that one and onto another anti-depressant. i am also starting therapy next week to help deal with everything---and i am scared.
em4040 em4040
18-21, F
2 Responses May 27, 2007

Hun i wish you the best of luck! Talking things out can help alot if you let it! Try not to be scared, having someone that isn't family or really close to you can make it easier to talk about. I was just older then you when i first talked to someone about all my feelings and i felt so much better each time. I would walk out of the office and feel like the weight was lighter. <br />
As for your medication that isn't rare to have happen i have been on different anitdepressents through the years. You will find one that works for you i will promise you that much. I hope that you find this some what helpful if you have any quesions on anything i have said just let me know. Take care!<br />
*HUGS*

Hun i wish you the best of luck! Talking things out can help alot if you let it! Try not to be scared, having someone that isn't family or really close to you can make it easier to talk about. I was just older then you when i first talked to someone about all my feelings and i felt so much better each time. I would walk out of the office and feel like the weight was lighter. <br />
As for your medication that isn't rare to have happen i have been on different anitdepressents through the years. You will find one that works for you i will promise you that much. I hope that you find this some what helpful if you have any quesions on anything i have said just let me know. Take care!<br />
*HUGS*