Gray Skies

I understand now, you probably think I don't but I do. I'm sorry you are going through this, I will put you in my prayers every night and morning. I want the best for you, I want you to be happy.

I know you're into poetry, but would you be interested in some less sophisticated song lyrics? I know a song that kind of matches what you said in this story.

Hey man, this actually got through to me. Not much does these days but I registered some emotion with this.
I like 'though I have never seen or felt the light, I still have hope.' Hit me up if you want to talk

Hi Rob,
If you've been on the same one for over a month without a "Lift",its worth going back to your doctor and ask to try another.There are loads of different ones.It can be a nightmare trying to find the right one,but if you do,the effect can be transforming.I would have mentioned Psycotherapy(Talking treatments)but your desciption suggested your to "Down" to be able to engage with that.I'm glad your going to see a psychiatrist,I hope the experience is positive and you leave feeling more hopeful.Try looking at some other ep sites,there's a number on music and although I've only been here just over a week,I suspect there's a site for just about anything.Its my hope the easy going sites might make you smile,who know's,maybe laugh!I realise though,that laughter might seem a million miles away,so forgive me if that reference left you cold.Best Wishes.....

Oh Rob,what can I say.Have you tried seeing your doctor perhaps to try an anti-depressant?
What struck me was that you said you start towards where you said you would like to see yourself,but you said"I just can't see it through".I'm imagining that initial energy just imploding sending you back to the sometimes safe space of your head and your music and sometimes lonely prison.Its true that some people have to try a number of different anti-depressants before they find the right one,but if your lucky,they can keep your mood up enough to go beyond the point where you usually find yourself retreating and so start building the life you envisage.You might as you start to feel better,find yourself wanting to talk,in which case,search the web for a local support group for depression.I have no doubt that your pain feeds your creativity as it has countless of artists all through history,I would however question the cost.You deserve life and life to the full and that can provide as much material as lonely introspection and probably alot more.Good luck mate!