I don't know why I'm always feeling so down. Most days, I just want to put my headphones on and zone out listening to coldplay. My heart aches every night from this deep feeling of sadness and it always feels as if I'm trapped in a dark hole. Though, I've never seen or felt the light, I have about a drop of hope left. I mean I want to be successful, have friends, a wife, children, and an empire but sometimes I just can't see it through. Some times I don't feel that I can make it through this life. Tears don't fall anymore because I'm slowly loosing control of everything. I used to pray, but I think my messages get lost out there. I don't know if I want to be saved, I don't want to talk to people about my problems,I don't know if I even want to be found, I just need my pen to write this poetry and these songs. Through my lyrics, I hope someone out there actually hears me. I hope one day I can smile and actually mean it and feel happy for once.